quite exciting

Feel excited right now about so many things.

jones, emma and doug in aus, argentina and china, that makes me excited. three beautiful friends, well and happy in amazing places.

im excited about the ridiculously blessed lives steve and i get to live.

ive been disillusioned about 'development' over the last couple of months, everything that ive studied and pretty much spent the last two years thinking about seemed pointless. caring about people in lesser developed countries, wanting to work with the people in these countries to develop the lives they want and the things they need and have an absolute right to, was suddenly being called a 'profession'. how is that a profession? as though you have to have a qualification to be part of these things. and it struck me that if this is the case, then what are we saying? that the actual people of the country arent qualified to help themselves? or that a person with a qualification from a developed country who has never even lived in a developing country is better qualified to 'develop' the country than a person who lives there and has participated in the country and the community all their lives? that bothered me. i dont want to be one of those 'developer' people. i really have no intentions of ever being a professional!
but then that really excited me, because i can still take part in all those things that i said, without living up to this western, london office job, fat cat arrogant and oh so wrong mentality. and i feel like somehow ive got one over on these people. maybe that makes me more arrogant than them! and maybe ill change my opinion. but thats ok.

and im really excited about moving back up to manchester next year. i love it here in swansea and really wasnt looking forward to leaving, but now i have more community / youth / cafe ideas and i really see no reason for them not to happen.

and a really nice and cool and incredibly talented friend has just had his second book published and the website is http://www.sawhorse.co.uk/

and there are other things, so you see, its all quite exciting